Sadness

Today I feel like this plant.  Not really sure if it's really worth fighting the inevitable anymore.  What do I mean?  Today I found out that a boss, a mentor, a friend, has chosen to leave.  I can't blame her in the least.  No one has been happy lately between the changes and the layoffs, it really hasn't been a happy place to be.  But for her, I can imagine how she must have felt to be passed over.  To be there so long and work so hard and not even be considered.  She has every right to do what she has done and yet I can't help but feel like that's it.  That's the end of it.  I have no reason now to stay myself.  She was the last reasonable voice, the last thing standing between me and the hungry lions.  Now all bets are off.  We don't really know what will happen or who will replace her but I don't know if it really matters to me.  She is joining a growing list of good people who are running for the door.  I think I should check the name on this ship because I am certain it must say Titanic.  I see and hear a lot and more and more it convinces me to join that list.  I just wish that it was a better time financially to do it.  I guess it is really never a great time to leave.  I hate change and have tried this before although not as seriously.  I just can't get past the sadness I feel.  It is such a great loss on such a personal level for me.  I am broken hearted.